Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Progress Report

Lol @ the title.

I have actually progressed since my last post.  YAY!  It took me a while, but I've gotten better at quite a few things

  • I'm exercising 4-6 days a week. P90X, and sometimes exercising twice a day.  I'm even a Team Beachbody Coach.  Look me up under Lyss.
  • I'm generally following the P90X diet.  Eating cleaner.  It actually feels me up.  I'm not hungry if I follow it.  In fact occasionally I'm full to the point of explosion.  (P.S. TMI, but P90X's high protein diet makes you poo a lot.)
  • I've essentially cut ties with my mother because when I was around her, she was "in my head" even when I wasn't around her.  I talked to my therapist about it, told him how I'm never truly happy with her.  She's always bought and bribed my love.  Been abusive and hypocritical.  So I knew, if I wanted to kick ass and take names, I needed to live without her.
  • The "Professor" and I get along great.  Well duh we fight, we have misunderstandings, but we've come leaps and bounds as individuals and as a couple.  I love him, and am more attracted to him every day.  I love him more than anyone (save God) or anything.
  • We're getting into a costuming/charity group for the Star Wars "bad guys" called The 501st Legion.  We've made dozens of new friends and epic contacts that are making life enjoyable.  We did a make a wish event that solidified my belief in one day adopting a child.  I want to help a child have a better life.  I can and will love them completely, just like I love my Sunny.
  • I have a very positive outlook for the future and I'm taking it a day at a time.  Looking too far ahead just upsets me, so I just work hard every day.
  • I'm happy in my role as a stay-at-home mom and a wife.  I promised the prof if he would support us financially, that I would completely support all his dreams.  I WILL get my education when we're more stable and ready, but I can see that Sunny and the prof need me in this capacity, and I want to spend my free time on having a beautiful home and a beautiful body.
  • I'm going to church, it makes me happy.  I shared my testimony for the first time in 5-6 years.  I feel a little too analytical about what I said, but I think I got my point across and expressed my love for the beautiful women in my church.  (I secretly hope that one of them or a few of them could mother me a little.  I never had a mother in the true sense of the word.)

I feel pretty dang happy, fulfilled.  I'm finally living my life.  I'm sure you'll see more of these topics at random points.

"I'm away laughing on a fast camel!"

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